Happy first of March! I drew tarot cards for each month this year, during the 12 magical nights ritual at the end of last year. My card for March is the Ace of Cups. The Ace of Cups represents the overflowing beginning of a new emotional, creative, or spiritual chapter, often symbolizing profound love, compassion, and JOY. Key words: romance, fulfillment, divine inspiration. Affirmation: My heart is overflowing with pure joy and divine love!
Divine love… that is something I really want to align with. Lately, I have been leaning into the unconscious, the stories of frustration, disappointment, loss, grief. That doesn’t set well with my soul. It doesn’t feel good in my body or my heart. I notice I am more likely to reach for instant gratification in terms of food and how I designate my time when I’m allowing my alignment with my highest self to slip. Pretty soon I’m staying up too late, my house gets disorganized, and my body feels stiff and achy. My mood destabilizes and drifts easily to more negative thoughts and assumptions. In no time at all, I am ripe for feelings of anxiety and depression. This is not how I want to live. This is not how I want to experience life, the world, relationships, myself. I call it putting on my grey colored glasses. It’s a choice and there are recent experiences that could seem to legitimize that choice. There are also recent experiences that significantly positively contrast with that choice. Like the ALL CLEAR mammogram results! Did I really go through that whole experience to not celebrate those results a year later? Those vibes don’t jive!
It’s time for me to put back on my rose-colored glasses! Just fyi mine are gold rimmed and heart shaped! As much as I don’t want to admit to the momentum I’ve been allowing to run unchecked, it’s time to get real with myself. I do love myself and my life and I want to consistently align with that truth! So, regret and recrimination don’t serve me. Better to wash my face and get on with it! So, what does that look like? It can be noticing a ‘negative’ thought and being gentle with it and with myself. I call it ‘holding lightly’. Sometimes I can hold lightly and release quickly. Other times I need a more intentional approach, like the five-step process I utilized in this post. My technique depends on how far out of alignment I feel. I gauge that by identifying where I am on the emotional guidance scale. I identify alignment as feeling the emotions at the very top of the scale. The value of checking in with ourselves is to cultivate self-awareness in an area we tend to remain unconscious. We leave our emotional wellbeing up to fate or circumstance. The best news is we don’t have to live our lives in an emotional pinball machine! We get to choose, through awareness and focus how we experience all aspects of our lives! So, I’m choosing to put back on my rose-colored glasses and hold my thoughts and reactions lightly and keep moving on up the emotional scale.